I leaned forward on the table, resting my chin on my folded arms, my hidden fingers gripping the table's edge as I fought to ignore the irrational longing that unsettled me. I didn't look at him, afraid that if he was looking at me, it would only make self-control that much harder. I sincerely tried to watch the movie, but at the end of the hour I had no idea what I'd just seen. I sighed in relief again when Mr.Banner turned the lights on, finally glancing at Edward; he was looking at me, his eyes ambivalent.
我向桌子倾下身去,把下颚放在交叠的小臂上,我隐藏起来的手指紧紧地抓住桌子的边缘。我挣扎着不去理会那股试图让我动摇的不合情理的渴望。我不敢看他,生怕他也在看着我,这只会让自我控制变得更难些。我由衷地想要看这部电影,但直到这堂课结束我还是不知道我刚刚看的是什么内容。当班纳老师把灯打开的时候,我宽慰地叹了口气,终于看了一眼爱德华。他正看着我,眼里写满了矛盾。
He rose in silence and then stood still, waiting for me. We walked toward the gym in silence, like yesterday. And, also like yesterday, he touched my face wordlessly — this time with the back of his cool hand, stroking once from my temple to my jaw — before he turned and walked away.
他默默地站起身,一动不动地站在那里,等着我。我们沉默着向体育馆走去,和昨天完全一样。然后,还是和昨天一样,他无言地轻抚我的脸庞——这次是用他冰冷的手背,从我的一侧眉毛一直抚摸到我的下颌——在他转身走开以前。
Gym passed quickly as I watched Mike's one-man badminton show. He didn't speak to me today, either in response to my vacant expression or because he was still angry about our squabble yesterday. Somewhere, in a corner of my mind, I felt bad about that. But I couldn't concentrate on him.
体育课在我观看迈克的羽毛球个人秀中很快就过去了。他今天没有跟我说话,也没有对我空白的表情作出任何反应,也许他还在为我们昨天的口角生着闷气。在我心底一角的某处,我对此感觉很糟。但我没法把注意力集中在他身上。
I hurried to change afterward, ill at ease, knowing the faster I moved, the sooner I would be with Edward. The pressure made me more clumsy than usual, but eventually I made it out the door, feeling the same release when I saw him standing there, a wide smile automatically spreading across my face. He smiled in reaction before launching into more cross-examination.
之后,我不安地赶去换衣服,知道我的动作越快,我就能越早和爱德华待在一起。这种压迫感使得我比平时还有笨手笨脚,但最终我冲出门口,和上次一样宽慰地看到他站在那里,一个大大的笑容下意识地浮现在我脸上。作为回应,他微笑起来,然后开始新一轮狂热的交互讯问。
《暮光之城》与图书题目相得益彰的是,“暮光之城”系列别具匠心的封面设计则很好地传达出了每本书内在的深远寓意。斯蒂芬妮·梅尔指出《暮色》封面上的苹果代表“创世纪” 内善恶树上的禁果。象征贝拉和爱德华之间人类与吸血鬼禁忌的爱恋。在书的开头引用了“创世纪”217页的内容:“只是分别善恶树上的果子,你不可吃,因为你吃的日子必定死。”这同时也代表了贝拉如何分辨善恶——选择是否吃下那颗禁忌的果实,这比喻了选择跟爱德华在一起或远离他。